Venerability . . . oh, how we fight against being vulnerable with one another . . . why?!
I used to hide behind masks myself – believe me – I had a mask for almost every situation! “never let anyone know what I was really feeling”, that was my way of approaching life . . . yes, even as a Christian, even in Ministry! I would be sharing with others about the Love of Christ and living in victory, but be torn apart inside . . . never letting others know what was REALLY going on in my own shattered world! NOT ANY MORE!!!! The Lord has shown me that there is a reason His Word tells us to “bear one another’s burdens”! Galatians 6:2
How can we truly be healed, if we do not allow others to minister to our wounds?!
How can we grow, if we do not allow the weeds to be pulled, the branches to be pruned and the roots to be fed and watered?!
I ask again . . . why?! Now, I answer . . . PRIDE, plain and simple . . . one of satan’s nasty tools that he loves to use to keep us from reaching our potential as becoming the beautiful whole sanctified Bride of Christ . . . (lust of the eyes, lust of the flesh and the pride of life; 1 John 2:16), his tricks never change! But why are we so quick to fall for his silly little dangling carrots in front of us?! For years I did, but NO MORE!!! I now make the conscious effort to choose to be vulnerable – to be open, even IF people make their own choice to think differently of me – that is their problem. I will forgive them.
So, here I am, with NO mask, sharing my heart . . . things have been REALLY chaotic to say the least, for a while now . . . took care of one side of it . . . now more ‘stuff’ has come up, and WOW! Mercy, I’m listening to a song just now that is talking about ‘the bottom falling out’ – how appropriate – BUT GOD! He has it ALL in His Hands! It is the trusting in Him through it that causes me to remind myself to “Breathe, girl!” (honestly, I do forget sometimes, and have to remind myself when I find myself really lightheaded!) And I look at those I love, and sometimes find my thoughts going “who IS this person? why are they talking this way? what is going on? where is all this coming from?” Of course, I KNOW we do NOT wrestle against flesh but against principalities and powers . . . etc. Ephesians 6:12 and that I just have to crawl up on Abba Father’s lap and rest in Him, drawing upon Holy Spirit’s never ending PEACE that passes ALL understanding and press on ahead . . . but, being REAL here . . . the spirit is willing, the flesh is weak (sometimes)…. remember, I’ve left the masks behind!
I am choosing to press ahead . . . for God does NOT lie and His Word promises that He is Faithful to complete that which He started!!!! Philippians 1:6
Masks down, head bowed, on my knees, tears gently falling, heart shaking, asking for brothers and sisters to surround with loving prayers and arms of love; words of encouragement . . . words of corrections, if you see anything that needs correcting, I am open – I do NOT want anything to hinder my growth! I desire to remain a handmaiden that He can use for His glory, for the furthering of His Kingdom . . . nothing else! I never want to be a stumbling block to anyone in any way! Not ever, especially not in my vulnerability, but I refuse to wear masks ever again . . . I must continue to allow my Precious Lord to mold and shape me into ALL that He desires me to be! I long to be the spotless Bride that He longs to return for! I want no blemishes, no wrinkles, no scars!!! If there be ANY thing that is NOT right – I want it GONE!!!! Oh, Jesus, You alone know the depths of anguish within my being . . . I feel as though somehow I have failed you, but I am not responsible for those around me, we are each responsible for our own walk . . . help me to remain steadfast and true to you and to them through every step of this journey . . . in love and honor and respect.
I love how you just answered me, Lord . . . WOW!
“It’s all yours. All your life, no one will be able to hold out against you. In the same way I was with Moses, I’ll be with you. I won’t give up on you; I won’t leave you. Strength! Courage! You are going to lead this people to inherit the land that I promised to give their ancestors. Give it everything you have, heart and soul. Make sure you carry out The Revelation that Moses commanded you, every bit of it. Don’t get off track, either left or right, so as to make sure you get to where you’re going. And don’t for a minute let this Book of The Revelation be out of mind. Ponder and meditate on it day and night, making sure you practice everything written in it. Then you’ll get where you’re going; then you’ll succeed. Haven’t I commanded you? Strength! Courage! Don’t be timid; don’t get discouraged. God, your God, is with you every step you take.” Joshua 1:7-9 The Message
“Why in the world are you saying that?” (you ask) Because If these kinds of attacks keep happening one after the other, boom, boom, boom . . . we have to be on the precipice of something wonderful for the Kingdom of God and we have riled up the troops of enemy!
You know . . . he can ‘see’ the path we are on, and he knows where it is leading. When he sees the stance we take, and hears the plans we have voiced/set in motion, and knows what victories those same plans have brought others in The Kingdom of God – he begins to SHAKE . . . and (I can almost see it) I believe even froth at the mouth! Perhaps spewing out in anger, “No! Not another one!”, then turning to his cohorts, “You must stop them, they cannot proceed, you must NOT allow them to move forward with their plans!!!!”
Yes, these past few days (weeks) have been very rough (painful), and yes, there have been some tears . . . but I have taken every single struggle, every single dart the enemy has thrown my way (every stone/arrow/lightening bolt/shoe dropped/etc) before my King’s Throne! I have crawled up on My Daddy’s Lap and cried . . . He SEES, He KNOWS, He IS in CONTROL over every circumstance and HE REIGNS SUPREME OVER ALL!!!
Illness, Despair, Hitting rock bottom – but NEVER giving up the hope I have in Jesus Christ!
Believing in His promises – KNOWING He will never leave me nor forsake me!
KNOWING that my body IS healed and that it WILL come in line – whether in this lifetime or in my heavenly body – I knew not – but I continue to believe in His promise to me!
Visions – Revelations – whispers into my innermost being . . . still in the process of discovering the very depth of His incredible LOVE for me – my BELOVED – my JOY – and what all of what He has shown me, and continues to reveal to me means . . . and when and how to begin to share with you . . . it will come . . . it is powerful . . . I miss writing, but have been unable up to this point. It was horrible, I could hardly form sentences, think, could not type, could not read . . . could not even sing or play my musical instrument in worship . . . all was internal from my spirit to God’s heart . . . and from His Spirit to mine . . . deep and intense and rich in LOVE.
My heart is so heavy, Lord,
as people twist Your Words
Words meant to bring Healing & Hope
now being used as as vicious swords
against the Body You are building
We are called to walk in unity
as we follow after You
Yet the twisting of Your Words
even if only but a few
are rendering a gaping wound
The love we have for these precious ones
that have been led away
from the fullness of Your Truth
as the enemy has made them sway
We, with tears, cry out to You
and on our knees, we pray
for You to continue to woo them back
and in Your family stay
Oh, Abba, even back with Eve
the enemy twisted Your Words to deceive
Again, in the wilderness, he twisted Your Word
in tempting Jesus, our Lord
But Jesus, firm in You, stood the ground
and to You remained true
Father, some are not that strong in You,
Have not recognized YOUR voice
and when the enemy came in
they made the wrong choice
to follow after the twisted words
taken out of context
and try to take others along with them
is their sole intent
Keep Your children protected, Lord
from being lead astray
by the lies, deceit, and twisted words
that others have begun to say!
Lord, Your Word tells us that YOUR sheep KNOW Your voice! Just like, in life, as we spend time with others, we can recognize their voice even in a crowded room, in passing and on the phone – we can only truly recognize Your voice as we stay in committed relationship with You! Spending time WITH You in worship, in prayer, in studying the Bible (within the context, not pulling things out here and there), and in quiet reflection, listening to Holy Spirit speaking into our hearts.
Those that are not quite there yet, in that relationship, Abba, I pray protection over their hearts and minds. Those that are, Abba, I pray love and mercy over the hurt and anger that wishes to arise (from our flesh) against those that have been misled. Oh, Lord, only You can correct these situations. Only You can reveal Truth. Only You can heal the wounds. We place our trust in You, alone, Abba, and we pour out our hearts in worship before You our King! Amen
Do you ever find yourself standing still, looking up at the crossroads of “Lost” and “Found” and wonder which one you are really on? They run against one another, but they do intersect often (or so it seems in my life).
In the natural, I’m always ‘misplacing’ (loosing) things . . . perhaps you can relate:
Something I purchased
. . . the list can go on and on and on . . . oh, I KNOW they are around – somewhere – but I can’t put my hands on them at the moment I need/want them.
Anyway, I digress.
We can not always readily get a hold of things we want but we can ALWAYS rest assured and be at peace with the ‘found’ department that we have full access to anytime day or night for our spiritual needs! Glory to God!!!
When we take up the position of praise . . . the position of worship . . . the position of the branches CONNECTED to The Vine (John 15). . . we are never ever lost!
Here’s how it can work for you (it works for me and countless others I know)!
surrounded by chaos? . . . let His peace be released in your situation
faced with a bad report (job, personal, medical, financial)? . . . let His peace be released in your situation
uncertainties overwhelming you about the things are coming at you and decisions that you must make? . . . let His peace be released in your situation.
too many distractions in your life just now? Get your worship on and allow His peace to be released in your situation!
Am I talking about a change of attitude? Something you need to say or do differently? Well, yes and no . . . it is an internal issue, not an external thing. His peace, that passes ALL understanding is what we must allow to guard our heart and mind (Philippians 2:7)! Only in Him and through Him can we walk in complete victory. He sent His Holy Spirit to indwell our very being and to give us everything we need for this life we now live (2 Peter 1:3).
Dear ones, learn to cast all your cares upon Him, and simply TRUST Him with every single aspect of your life . . . no one loves and cares for you more than He does!
Things start flying at you and you are wondering what in the world happened? Where did THAT come from and why???? So, you ask. The person tells you something that is SO not the truth of the actual situation. They are completely convinced that something was said or done that you can not convince them otherwise. Why is that?! People involved in the same situation yet both fully believing it developed in a different way.
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Oh, Father, what to do, what to do . . . (His answers – click the links below)…
Abba Father, thank You . . . I am grasping Your peace and taking refuge in You, and ‘trying’ (very hard) to walk and rest in TRUSTING You . . . You have NEVER let me down, and I know deep inside You never will. Help my faith, Abba, right now the flesh is very weak and shaky. Soften the hearts of all involved in the situations that are causing such turmoil. Create harmony once again in our lives so that we can continue on serving You and loving one another unconditionally. Amen.
We come from different backgrounds. We go to different churches. We have sat under different denominational teachings – BUT – we ARE to be in UNITY when it comes to our role in this world. As Christians (as with our armed forces) it should not matter what the uniform we wear is! We are in God’s Army, Jesus Christ is our Commander-in-Chief and we need to face the enemy (satan) TOGETHER!
If we can just try and wrap our brains around this principle:
In the history of Americans in wartime, there is an underlying sense of “get the job done”. Men and women will walk side-by-side, fight side-by-side, bleed side-by-side, cover one another, do everything they can to ensure the protection of one another, REGARDLESS of the uniform!
How many of us would be willing to link arms with our brothers and sisters (IN Christ) who happen to worship differently than we do?
Can you imagine the IMPACT our unity would have upon this world?
We already have one small example through the results of the presidential election . . . Christians got down on their knees, hooked up with one another at prayer rallies, chimed in onto conference calls for prayer over our nation and the election. Truly humbling themselves, crying out for wisdom, direction and God’s perfect will to be done. The result? A man who was completely godless has given his heart to Jesus. A man who acknowledged that he didn’t need …. fill in the blank, there are so many different things stated . . . now is surrounding himself with Godly counsel! The Vice-President elect (and his wife) are both dynamic, on fire, firm in their faith, Spirit-filled believers.
Another example is right here in San Antonio. A Godly woman, against all odds, was chosen as an interim Mayor, only to be surrounded by the body of Christ with support, love and much prayer – she IS our Mayor. And, just like with Joseph and Daniel, God’s favor has been upon her so much so that even opposition is now supporting her wholeheartedly for the upcoming reelection process!
So . . . let us focus back upon what this article started with . . . We are ALL in this TOGETHER!
As we come alongside one another in love, forgetting (laying aside) our differences (the uniform we wear) and place our thoughts, intents and purposes towards the things God desires of us – namely LOVE – we CAN pray together, worship together, cover one another, support one another AND advance the Kingdom of God!
Don't ever change yourself to impress someone, cause they should be impressed that you don't change to please others -- When you are going through something hard and wonder where God is, always remember that the teacher is always quiet during a test --- Unknown