Illness, Despair, Hitting rock bottom – but NEVER giving up the hope I have in Jesus Christ!
Believing in His promises – KNOWING He will never leave me nor forsake me!
KNOWING that my body IS healed and that it WILL come in line – whether in this lifetime or in my heavenly body – I knew not – but I continue to believe in His promise to me!
Visions – Revelations – whispers into my innermost being . . . still in the process of discovering the very depth of His incredible LOVE for me – my BELOVED – my JOY – and what all of what He has shown me, and continues to reveal to me means . . . and when and how to begin to share with you . . . it will come . . . it is powerful . . . I miss writing, but have been unable up to this point. It was horrible, I could hardly form sentences, think, could not type, could not read . . . could not even sing or play my musical instrument in worship . . . all was internal from my spirit to God’s heart . . . and from His Spirit to mine . . . deep and intense and rich in LOVE.
As much as we desire to get on with our lives, there always seems to be something way back in the past that has such a hold on us that we cannot seem to free ourselves and move on.
I truly believe that most of the time we are not even aware of those moments that have had enormous effects on the way we ‘see’ ourselves, and/or that can actually trigger responses in us as we face things that are in front of us now.
Are YOU trapped in a moment?
Do you find yourself responding to people or situations in a way that you find yourself questioning, Why in the world did that hit me the way it did?” or “Why did I respond that way?” or “Where in the world did that feeling come from?!”
Dear ones, when we have had trauma in our lives (even as far back as early childhood) and it has not truly been dealt with, it can – and does – trigger responses and reactions. Sometimes we’ve stuffed our experiences down so deeply inside that we don’t even recall them ourselves, yet something comes up and the trigger response is blown out of proportion!
If I find myself reacting to certain things, I have learned to ask the Lord to reveal to me the source within me that is allowing those words/thoughts/feelings to surface. Then, when He does, I repent (if its something I’ve caused) and ask Him to remove the hurt, allowing Him to bring forth the healing I need from that particular situation. Sometime it takes our reaching out to others as well, for added guidance – I strongly suggest a good Biblical counselor/mentor. To KNOW that the Lord desires us to walk in complete freedom from our past is a good place to start! Then, as you allow Holy Spirit to do His work in your heart, don’t allow the evil one to bring it back! If you find yourself starting to think about what someone said or did . . . stop it immediately . . . take that thought captive (2 Corinthians 10:5)! Then, change your focus (Isaiah 43:18 & Philippians 4:8)!
Another thing that really helps me accomplish this task is to declare God’s word (usually the opposite of what I’m thinking/feeling). Here are some examples:
1 – I “feel” SO unloved . . . I will focus on God’s lovefor me!
2 – I “feel” like I’m unaccepted or rejected . . . I will focus on the fact that God chose me!
3 – When my body is throwing symptoms of an illness . . . I focus on what Christ did already for my healing!
There are many, many scriptures that can change our heart/mind attitude, if we but ask Him to show us, He is faithful. Treasure what He speaks into your heart – dwell in His presence, communicating with Him every little detail – allow His complete and total healing to pour over every area of your life. We all need healing in one area or another (or some of us in MANY areas) . . . He is waiting for you to come to Him . . . He is ready to love you through to victory!
Oh I HATE when this happens . . . I know it has been a while since I posted a blog on here, and for that I do apologize.
The reason(s), I am presuming,
are as follows:
My last article STILL impacts my heart and my brain
The busy ‘things’ that happen in life are at times overwhelming
I still live in this fleshly body which from time to time likes to SCREAM at me with symptoms that I long ago stopped speaking and claiming!
So, here I sit at the keyboard, with so many thoughts and ideas running (quite competitively) through my head and find myself coming up with nothing. The screen stares back at me and I can almost hear the laughter . . . yes, I do have a vivid imagination ♥
Perhaps a good start to posting would the third thing mentioned above. Struggling with weight issues, complications arose from that and the way I lived my life, my body really went down hill. One day it dawned on me that everytime (or so it seemed) that I went to a doctor there were more diagnosises placed upon me. And, like a dutiful patient, I started ‘claiming’ them. Yep, talked about them ALL the time. The result of such behavior on my part? Steady declining health.
Once I realized what I was doing to myself – the fact that God’s Word clearly tells us that “The tongue has the power of life and death, and those who love it will eat its fruit.” Proverbs 18:21 – and that everytime I was speaking the diagnosis, I was giving it more power over my body – I had a decision to make.
I chose to change the way I spoke!
Do the doctors and tests still say that I ‘have’ certain things? Does my body still ‘feel’ like it has certain things? Hmmm. . . I think you know the answer to that . . . but I no longer speak or claim them over myself.
God’s Word also clearly tells us distinctly that as Jesus Christ hung on the cross of Calvary, He not only took upon himself my sin, but also my sickness, infirmaties and diseases! (Mathew 8:17). . . that means . . . when He said “IT IS FINISHED” . . . it WAS!!!
There is a spiritual battle that goes on between God’s Word and my body . . . it is a fight that has already been won, I fully know and understand this . . . but battle heats up from time to time and I must stand firm with The FULL Armor on and trust that my body WILL come in line . . . for . . . I AM HEALED!
Don't ever change yourself to impress someone, cause they should be impressed that you don't change to please others -- When you are going through something hard and wonder where God is, always remember that the teacher is always quiet during a test --- Unknown