Contemplation

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While I Was Away from Blogging

Published June 9, 2017 by birdieklh

Illness, Despair, Hitting rock bottom – but NEVER giving up the hope I have in Jesus Christ!

Believing in His promises – KNOWING He will never leave me nor forsake me!

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KNOWING that my body IS healed and that it WILL come in line – whether in this lifetime or in my heavenly body – I knew not – but I continue to believe in His promise to me!

Visions – Revelations – whispers into my innermost being . . . still in the process of discovering the very depth of His incredible LOVE for me – my BELOVED – my JOY – and what all of what He has shown me, and continues to reveal to me means . . . and when and how to begin to share with you . . . it will come . . . it is powerful . . . I miss writing, but have been unable up to this point. It was horrible, I could hardly form sentences, think, could not type, could not read . . . could not even sing or play my musical instrument in worship . . . all was internal from my spirit to God’s heart . . . and from His Spirit to mine . . . deep and intense and rich in LOVE.

The song that got me through . . .

God’s Impeccable Timing!

Published February 19, 2017 by birdieklh

Oh my goodness . . . why am I surprised?! Silly me! He ALWAYS does things perfectly, and here I am still basking in His awesome love.

I simply HAVE to share some of what our awesome Lord has done.

You see, my husband and I went on a retreat – knew it would bring healing, set some things right in our lives, but we really had NO idea how much so! Without going into all the details, let me simply say this – a HUGE bolder of “Unworthiness & Rejection” was revealed, stripped away and TOSSED my-bolder as far as one can possibly throw. It was a very intense, introspective time of examination, and it was not pleasant . . . ah, but the lightness within, after letting, go was amazing. It is amazing still, now, a week later.

The story does not end there . . . no, my friends, it is but a beginning.

There had been (in the past few months) a ‘feeling’ of distance (sort of a wall) that I had noticed. After what happened on that retreat, and after prayer, I reached out to the person explaining that I was sensing a distancing in our relationship. I asked if I had somehow offended them. They responded, “let’s talk”. So, today, we did.

 

I’m telling you that God’s PERFECT timing is just that. The person didn’t feel a ‘release’ to speak with me until I reached out. Then, when we had our glorious encounter, I KNEW that had I / we tried to ‘talk’ (of the things we discussed) before . . . it would of been a complete devastating disaster to me. But it wasn’t! No, not at all. With that burden;  that bolder of unworthiness lifted, I was able to have a normal, very productive, incredible and glorious time of receiving the love that was being offered.

Sometimes we have to have difficult discussions with one another – to truly walk in the Love of Christ, to be the body He intended us to be, we need to speak to one another from time to time with. Instruction, presented and received in love is SO freeing! SO healing! SO refreshing!

I am grateful to God for placing Godly friends around me. Those that love me enough to address an area they see (or perceive) differently than that which God intends for us.

Once we have allowed God to heal the trauma of our past – once we’ve allowed Holy Spirit to download into our hearts how precious we are to Him – once we understand / grasp His GREAT love for us . . . we can RECEIVE and grow from what others (who truly love us) have to say.

How I thank Him for the surgery He preformed on my inner-man at the retreat.

How I thank Him for showing me that I AM worthy – so worthy, in fact that He sent His Son to die in my place that I could have eternal life!

How I thank Him for helping me (over the past few months) to see and recognize (and we are still working on the understanding) that what He has me doing in the Kingdom is of great worth. It is not what I had felt I should be doing. It is not what others have spoken over my life, that I would be doing. I had (from the depths of that heavy bolder of unworthiness) felt that what I was doing was nothing . . . but it IS EXACTLY what He has for me at this time.

I am praising Him for allowing me to embrace the woman He is designing me to be! I have begun to feel an excitement in what He has me doing. Beginning to be comfortable with me . . . probably for the very first time in my entire life . . . it is an incredible revelation and it is full of joy and peace like I’ve never known before.

You know, sometimes we hear a word spoken (or in my case, multiple ‘confirmations’ of a word spoken) over us and we jump in with everything we have. We push forward, we keep speaking it . . . proclaiming (calling forth those things that are not as though they are) but . . . was it REALLY the Lord speaking those things over us? Did we / did I (no) take it to prayer and seek His plan? Unfortunately, I just went with it. Then, with that bolder of unworthiness strapped to my back, I pressed on. What did that accomplish? Heartache and disappointment time after time after time. I would find myself reacting out of that “trying to prove . . . (something) myself” – oh, Lord, what a mess!

Why am I making myself vulnerable by sharing such intimate details of my faith walk? Because I am praying that perhaps it will help another person on their own pilgrimage.

May I suggest a thorough examination of your heart:

  • Am I reacting in ways that are not mature in some areas?
  • Do things people say or do (or not say or do) cause me to feel rejected?
  • Do I find myself always struggling with “please listen to me, I am important too”?
  • Am I uncomfortable with where God has me right now, when I ‘want’ something different?
  • What IS my real perception of myself (on the inside, when no one is around)?
  • Does that perception line up with how others see you? What do their reactions/words tell me about who I am?
  • Have I absolutely taken the words spoken over me and run with them, or have I totally laid them on the altar before the Lord, seeking His guidance, His direction, His vision, His plan?

I have been walking with the Lord for a very long time. I have been serving Him for a very long time. Yet, I needed DEEP inner healing and a release I did not even realize I had need of! If you would have asked me a week and a half ago if I was completely free in the Lord, I would of answered quickly and emphatically, “YES!” – but, I would have been very wrong. We are always being stretched, shaped, molded into His image; however, sometimes we resist Him – not knowingly, but resisting still the same. That is where I was . . . I pray that I will not be there any more!

Abba Father, my love for You continues to grow more and more each and every day, and my heart overflows with gratitude to You for all You have done, are doing and will continue to do in my life. Help me, Holy Spirit, to remain pliable on Your Potter’s wheel . . . like the song you gave me yesterday, “I bow before Your Throne, Jesus, I trust in You, alone, Jesus – I lay my life on Your Altar, have Your way in me, Jesus . . . ”  I bless you, my God! Lover of my soul, King, Savior, Lord . . . amen

 Dear ones, we NEED to be able to see ourselves as God sees us. We NEED to understand that what He says about us is Truth and what others may have spoken over us/ into us throughout our lifetimes may have caused deep damage that He desires to heal.

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It is my prayer that you, too, will find your healing.

© klh 4-Given Ministries

Moments in Time

Published February 15, 2017 by birdieklh

Sometimes we seem to reflect upon certain moments in our life that we can quickly find ourselves ‘trapped’ in that time!

As much as we desire to get on with our lives, there always seems to be something way back in the past that has such a hold on us that we cannot seem to free ourselves and move on.

I truly believe that most of the time we are not even aware of those moments that have had enormous effects on the way we ‘see’ ourselves, and/or that can actually trigger responses in us as we face things that are in front of us now.

Are YOU trapped in a moment?

Do you find yourself responding to people or situations in a way that you find yourself questioning, Why in the world did that hit me the way it did?” or “Why did I respond that way?” or “Where in the world did that feeling come from?!”

Dear ones, when we have had trauma in our lives (even as far back as early childhood) and it has not truly been dealt with, it can – and does – trigger responses and reactions. Sometimes we’ve stuffed our experiences down so deeply inside that we don’t even recall them ourselves, yet something comes up and the trigger response is blown out of proportion!

If I find myself reacting to certain things, I have learned to ask the Lord to reveal to me the source within me that is allowing those words/thoughts/feelings to surface. Then, when He does, I repent (if its something I’ve caused) and ask Him to remove the hurt, allowing Him to bring forth the healing I need from that particular situation. Sometime it takes our reaching out to others as well, for added guidance – I strongly suggest a good Biblical counselor/mentor. To KNOW that the Lord desires us to walk in complete freedom from our past is a good place to start! Then, as you allow Holy Spirit to do His work in your heart, don’t allow the evil one to bring it back! If you find yourself starting to think about what someone said or did . . . stop it immediately . . . take that thought captive (2 Corinthians 10:5)! Then, change your focus (Isaiah 43:18 & Philippians 4:8)!

Another thing that really helps me accomplish this task is to declare God’s word (usually the opposite of what I’m thinking/feeling). Here are some examples:

1 – I “feel” SO unloved . . . I will focus on God’s love for me!

2 – I “feel” like I’m unaccepted or rejected . . . I will focus on the fact that God chose me!

3 – When my body is throwing symptoms of an illness . . . I focus on what Christ did already for my healing!

There are many, many scriptures that can change our heart/mind attitude, if we but ask Him to show us, He is faithful. Treasure what He speaks into your heart – dwell in His presence, communicating with Him every little detail – allow His complete and total healing to pour over every area of your life. We all need healing in one area or another (or some of us in MANY areas) . . . He is waiting for you to come to Him . . . He is ready to love you through to victory!

© klh 4-Given Ministries

 

Is it Today, Lord?

Published January 13, 2017 by birdieklh

Today, while we were driving, I looked up and gazed into the LAYERS of clouds. Oh, dear ones, my heart leaped within me!

Gazing at the way the clouds were formatted alongside and atop one another found me searching through tears . . . “Wouldn’t it be WONDERFUL if it were today that You were to come through those clouds with the mighty sound of the trumpet?!”

It is times like these that the Lord uses to remind me of His steadfast love and all of His promises . . . thank you, Lord, for the awesome reminder! Oh, how I love YOU!!!!

“…This same Jesus who was taken up from you into heaven will so come in like manner as you saw Him go into heaven.”  Acts 1:9-11 NKJV

Behold, I tell you a mystery: We shall not all sleep, but we shall all be changed—  in a moment, in the twinkling of an eye, at the last trumpet. For the trumpet will sound, and the dead will be raised incorruptible, and we shall be changed….” 1 Corinthians 15:51-55 NKJV

Maranatha . . . Come, Lord Jesus, Come!

 

©klh 4-Given Ministries

What Happened?!

Published January 12, 2017 by birdieklh

Wham! Out of nowhere it hits . . .

WORDS

ACTIONS

ATTITUDES

Things start flying at you and you are wondering what in the world happened? Where did THAT come from and why???? So, you ask. The person tells you something that is SO not the truth of the actual situation. They are completely convinced that something was said or done that you can not convince them otherwise. Why is that?! People involved in the same situation yet both fully believing it developed in a different way.

HURT

PAIN

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DOUBTS

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Oh, Father, what to do, what to do . . . (His answers – click the links below)…

…. “Come unto Me”

….“Take refuge IN Me”

….“Know that I am your Defense

….“Know that I will always be with you in all things”

….“I have given you My peace”

Abba Father, thank You . . . I am grasping Your peace and taking refuge in You, and ‘trying’ (very hard) to walk and rest in TRUSTING You . . . You have NEVER let me down, and I know deep inside You never will. Help my faith, Abba, right now the flesh is very weak and shaky. Soften the hearts of all involved in the situations that are causing such turmoil. Create harmony once again in our lives so that we can continue on serving You and loving one another unconditionally. Amen.

© klh 4-Given Ministries

 

Wasn’t it Just Yesterday?

Published September 9, 2016 by birdieklh

When our world turned upside down?

When all of our smiles and hopes

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Turned into tears and frowns?

Wasn’t it just yesterday

When we watched those towers fall

In shock, despair and unbelief

Our prayers to God did call

Oh, Father of all creation,

What has happened to our nation?

Wasn’t it just yesterday

That tragedy struck our hearts

Words, thoughts, speculation

Thrown around like fiery darts?

We had revival for a short time

As people turned to You

For most, in their darkest hour

Sought YOU to see them through.

For those of us who KNOW You,

Always had that inner peace

Those who just for a time

Sought You for ‘release’ . . .

Yet, many, quite sadly

Too soon turned away

Back to the lives they knew

Allowing the world, their thoughts to sway.

Father, God, YOU alone are the answer to ALL we face

I seek You NOW with all my heart, asking for You for Grace . . .

To renew our faith . . . as we humble ourselves and pray . . .

As we truly run after You,

I KNOW that You are Faithful, Righteous and True.

In You there is healing, in You there is Hope

As we remember, and trust in You,

Lord, You help us to cope

With all the pain of those memories dear

That happened to us back in that year . . . 15 years ago . . .

Oh Lord, I pray, Your great mercy . . . show

Let people see their need of You

Let Your love begin to flow

Reunite Your body, Lord, and for this nation, may we pray

More earnestly, consistently,

And LISTEN to what You say –

For ONLY in You will there be Hope and Peace

….You set us free!

©klh 4-Given Ministries

 

 

 

The Root of the Problem

Published September 6, 2016 by birdieklh

WOW . . . talk about a tangled mess! Mercy me!

These past few weeks some nasty roots were exposed. I say ‘nasty’ because it was  NOT nice, not one bit! They are (were) a gnarly mess to say the least! Just like this tree with its roots exposed, you can actually SEE the twisted, discombobulated wreck.

Now, you may be thinking, what in the world is this lady talking about? Well, let me tell you . . .

Years ago I had been diagnosed with multiple (painful, serious) conditions within this shell which I call my body. Those specific diagnosis I grabbed a firm grip on, clung to, spoke of them I (grumbling, complaining, declaring them to the world) and saw myself getting steadily worse and worse. So much so that I found myself in a wheelchair for 2 and a half years! [I know I have shared bits and pieces of this before, forgive any repetition]

After multiple surgeries (double hip replacements and a few other ‘repairs’) I also had a spiritual surgery done upon my heart by my loving Heavenly Father! He reminded me through His Holy Spirit, and His Word, that Jesus blood was shed not only for the forgiveness of my sins, but for the healing of my body!!! He also reminded me that the power of life and death is in the words we speak (Proverbs 18:21)! Those words have the power within themselves to fulfill . . . and . . . what was coming out of my mouth???!!!

O U C H ! ! ! 

So, the result of this was my CHOOSING TO CHANGE MY SPEECH! The result of that was I started seeing the results. Is the pain completely gone? I truly wish I could say a loud “yes”, but that is not the case; however, I have made it a habit to declare God’s Word, stand upon His promises and press on ahead with life.

…but…going back to the title of today’s message . . . the ugly roots that revealed themselves are as follows:

  • My body reacted to stress from various sources over the past few weeks
  • I allowed myself to ‘share’ a bit with others about it, for prayer(?)
  • I saw and FELT the symptoms begin to worsen once again
  • I allowed myself to listen to counsel about ‘taking it easy’ and/or ‘taking time away from obligations’. . .the results . . . don’t even want to say, to be honest

Roots. Tangled, ugly, twisted roots! Roots that were sapping out the wrong ‘nutrients’ (the negative instead of God’s Truth!) and I allowed it! All I can do is repent and PRAISE GOD, accept His loving forgiveness and strength and continue to move forward in faith, fully standing on His Word and His FINISHED work at Calvary!

What roots has Holy Spirit revealed to you? and, what are YOU doing to properly cultivate them?

 

 

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