“Okay, Lord . . . here I am, again, after a couple weeks of a lot of medical tests, finding myself having to face more “diagnosis” that I do NOT want, and refuse to ‘accept’ as Your perfect will for me.”
Another day, another 10+ ‘bad news’ scenarios from two doctors . . . awaiting a call from my orthopedic surgeon to correct something after a fall . . . the test they took to ‘look deeply into’ what damage the fall had done revealed to them SO much more about the rest of this vessel of clay that I’m in – temporarilly (praise God) – that I found myself kind of in shock.
It was a fight for me not to break down and cry.
Things had been going so well with me, physically. Able to walk again (on my own) after being in a chair for over 2 1/2 years, now facing another surgery which means at least 10 weeks back with a walker, more physical therapy.
And . . . there are three other issues that they want to ‘deal with’, but I’m asking them to wait . . . I am trusting God to continue to sustain me . . . Jesus bore my sickness, disease, sin, EVERYTHING on that cross and I do NOT have to accept more stinking diagnosis!
They can diagnosis me all they want, God’s Word says differently! I stand on His Word, His love for me, and His grace IS sufficient for me!
Sometimes this faith walk is a glorious stroll through the park with grace and joy abounding . . . sometimes this faith walk is full of things that cause us to make a choice to quit, give in, give up, shut ourselves off from people and even life, OR we can make the choice to continue walking . . . trusting . . . knowing that God loves us so very much and that His plans for us are for a future and a hope – not for harm!
It’s not always easy . . . in fact . . . it is honestly sometimes extremely hard to get that first step started . . . but KNOWING Who has you in His loving care . . . how can I NOT choose to continue walking in faith!
“Thank You, Abba, for loving me like You do. Thank You for always being there, for always providing everything I need for each and every moment of every single day. My soul rejoices in You, Lord, You are my everything!”
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